To the man I love…H A P P Y  B I R T H D A Y!

Today is the day that I am very blessed and so thankful for... coz today is the day that you were born… the day when my soul mate, my best friend, my lover, my other half… who holds my heart with tremendous care & love existed… the day when my personal miracle happened.

Life seems so beautiful with you in it… my hearts is filled with music and bright colors…

With you… every day is a blessing and every challenge is worth fighting for.  And even if we are in the midst of a challenge it doesn't have any bearing coz no matter how bad the situation is and will be it couldn't get any worse…coz YOU and having you is a constant reminder of Gods love and Gods blessing upon me…coz you are the most wonderful blessing I have from HIM… and so no matter how many stones being thrown at me… I know I can always find an armored somewhere…and even if I stumbled in life for a countless of times…I know I can always stand up and will stood up all the time… coz you are there to hold my hands, help me stand and back me up. And I believe with God in our hearts nothing will be against us.

You see myluvs, just by having you in my life…I could say I have the world's important wealth… LOVE…love for the man I love, love from the man who loved me back, love for my family & true friends and above all HIS love.  And so I could say… I can always deal with a bumpy ride or a bad weather coz I have you…my personal miracle and I have my people, who will always be there no matter what… a constant reminder of Gods love.

And so in this special day of yours, I want to thank you with all my heart for being with me all these time, for holding my hands, for sharing your love with me and growing with it together… for taking good care of my heart, for all the hugs and kisses that never fails to warm my heart... thank you.  Thank you for loving me, I truly appreciate YOU and all the things that you do for me and for us.  Muchos gracias mi Amor for sharing your life with me. 

I love you so very dearly myluvs with all my heart… with all of me…with all my life… I love you & I miss you, always… think I'm addicted to your presence :).  And I wish and pray that we will grow old together and keep our faith and love alive.

Myluvs, may God continuously bless you with good health and strength.  May God bestowed upon you the pink of health always and continue to strengthen you and your faith.

And May God blesses us always and keeps us under HIS umbrella of protection.

 Have a blessed BIRTHDAY Myluvs. Te amo mucho mi amor.

Happy Birthday Mother-in-law

I feel very fortunate to have a mother-in-law like you . . . someone who's nice to talk to and comfortable to be with, someone whose warmth and caring make me feel welcome in the family ever since I set foot in your home . . . You're someone very special in my life... And i THANK YOU for everything... not only for raising a wonderful son & children but for opening your heart and letting me in. For that, i will always be thankful to God for giving me a wonderful in laws.

And thank you too, Ma.

And so, on your birthday I wish you all the best, but mostly I wish you good health, love and happiness. This comes from my heart, not just words written down, for in you I have found a friend, a Mother, a person like no other...you are a wonder mom. Happy Birthday Ma! i love you.
God bless you always.

-- my side of story -- (before it was out in the open)

How are you... may not the proper way to ask you right now, coz i know you are still in pain, unbelievable painful, i know.  You are in your dark & twisted moment (as what MG always describe herself).

Are you still having a good grip? I pray so. Seriously, I was so devastated with what happened to you and your family…I was and still am.  I am so affected, maybe because I felt betrayed by your wifey, as well.  You see, I open my heart to her… especially when baby niez join your family, all the reservation was vanished. I let her in, I gave her the luxury and the treatment of more than ordinary sister in law could provide.  I let her be part of me, part of my inner circle and most of all I trusted her.  And then all of a sudden, i will know that she was just faking it, playing with my emotion, with our feeling, pretending someone so naïve when the truth is she is such a cunning little witch. (forgive my vocabulary)

I do ask myself why I am so affected, personally. And it goes to the realization that I was deceived, let down… despite the fact of my special treatment, I am literally stubbed at my back.  But the news came just in time for my big day. So no room for apprehension… I tried to let go of the resentment and exasperation, and try to shush my dispute. And it was quite an effort for me to do so, when all I want is to rant and rave to the person accountable for the hurly-burly of this clan… the root of all this mess.  But still, I get hold of myself and refrain from retaliation… coz I don't want to add up the torment mama's dealing with and I have you to consider with…your ordeal of course, I know your dealing with one heck of a situation.  And I know, it's not so easy… not at all. And I understand that ya, seriously. That's why I keep my mouth shut to a certain extent …just to stay away with what's going on with you guys.  I've wanted to talk with your wife not as a sister in law but as a betrayed person or whatever, well not really talk-talk with her, confronts her that was my plan. Once and for all, I just want to clean the air… and I want to know why she's doing all this a shambles, I want to dig deep inside her for me to comprehend. But they said it's not such a good idea, they were afraid that I might not just talk with your wife. well cant blame them, coz at that time, I was so furious at her, of what she did to you and not even considering baby niez in each step she took, she literally forget that she has a daughter, literally.  And by that, I just couldn't comprehend her way of thinking, I don't really get her.

I know I should not interfere because it's none of my business, because this is within your border line, it's your family.  But the thing is… this is beyond your family… our family are so affected… especially mama & papa… and that's when my business starts to get in the way. And I hope you understand my feeling towards your wifey.

You know ya, I couldn't figure out what's wrong with her…she is so hateful and heartless. Coz instead of repenting, she keeps on repeating the erroneous deeds.  It seems that your wife thinks what she did was right, as if she was convicted without due process of law…and that people should sympathizes her… and that we are the villain. She didn't even exert effort to redeem herself; did she really think that what she did was right? And that we suppressed her? Seriously! Gosh, she is so unbelievable! Did you ever know what she is doing when you are out working your ass off to provide for your family? I certainly hope so.

And she seriously mock me in the web, In FS, did she just did that? , and nobody informed me not till later because they don't want me to strike back. But still after knowing, my mouth was zipped because I have to consider my people and of course you. And so I prayed, coz that's the best thing I can do, the healing of your family tree and for her enlightenment.

But what pained me more in this situation, is that knowing that baby niez will be affected one way or another. I am hurt mostly for baby niez, of course, for you and for our family, you don't deserve such pain… our parents don't deserve such pain of seeing you bite the dust and baby niez deserve better… but I guess its life.  No matter how we protect our love ones from getting hurt, they will always will get hurt… from us, from the decision we make or made or from the other person we loved. We don't want to, we tried not to, but it always end up the same…hurting them all over again.  Coz no matter what we do, we will always hurt the person we love, not deliberately… yes. But because of the love they have for us that they get hurt and because we loved them that we get hurt also. I think its part of loving.  I just hope and pray that no matter how painful the situation will be, we will be having a good grip for each other and that we will all believe that no matter how bad the situation will be God always sends rainbows after the rain.  And as long as we have each other, this too shall pass.

On the contrary I am proud of you ya, coz you climb after you stumble… you didn't let the quick sand gobble you up… you raise yourself high above. I am proud of you ya, just have a little faith.

Have you ever felt so annoyed by someone? Have you ever met someone so exasperating? Have you ever known someone so callous, so rude, so vile, so wicked, no conscience at all. Well I knew one, and I'm not so proud to know one. But what makes it more aggravating is that you can't just bounce back, coz if you do, the person close to you will get hurt, and as much as possible you don't want to cause pain with the person you love, you just can't hurt the person you love. Just can't. Isn't it maddening?

But the heartbreaking part is that, you used to consider this cold-blooded bigheaded a family… you provided her with things you think she didn't have the luxury to enjoy… you started to care for her… to put her in the umbrella of your protection… and consider her as one of your people… and yet she stings like a bee, how about that!

And then out of the blue, you will find out that she was just beating you around the bush, that she is like having some MPD when she's around you…she's only trying to put on a show, wherein she portrait a childlike character when hiding the monster inside her. She is wearing this huge camouflage for over years to fool us all? But then truth always prevail, true colors will always appears. 

And so, we all knew… I knew and we all knew what's inside her closet… and seriously, it stinks. Stinks like a rotten rat. Even her own kith and kin couldn't believe her when she unveils her true self. What a selfish bitch! She still thinks she can actually fool us? UNBELIEVABLE! Seriously, I think her being a smart ass could not grasp the reality of life.  Not that smart after all. Can't she see? We are just trying to behave, I mean I am trying my damnest best to behave accordingly, coz I don't want to create chaos in my kinfolk, beside I don't want to step down to her level...that is just so low life and pathetic. And I am trying to be refined here as possible, for the sake of my nearest and dearest.   She is such a worthless person! Using someone to be her human shield? Seriously? Seriously! Isn't it more despicable enough? 

*** Hey b i a t c h! ***

What kind of person are you? Seriously, What are you? Vampire? Nah! They are much better than you.  Maybe a monster traps in a human's body? Perhaps. Are you really a human at all? Coz I doubt that! I'm not really sure... I am so bewildered, I cannot fathom your way of thinking. Why you choose to be in amiss-dirty dirty path. Is it worth it? Is it worth losing your family? Is it? Well, I really felt sorry for myself for trusting you. You are such a waste. But I am more than sorry for you, coz you lost me, you lost us… and for what? For satisfying your ego or was it the intense of that stupid fascination, or was it the craze that your up to, the thrill, the obsession maybe? Now you have nothing…except your pathetic thick face. Aren't you ashamed? You should be. But I think you don't have that, I don't even think you have conscience at all. You are so fake, you are so into make believe… you are so hateful.  I am so sick of your crap… hearing your name linked with mine makes me nauseated. But I bet you think you're doing the right thing, aren't you? that you're at the right track… well I cant blame you, all the guilty think that way, even those in the 5^th Floor, the one with the shrink thinks they are 100% right.

I think there's no salvation for you. I used to believe that my prayer will move you. I still hope so though. But you are so unbearable, loathsome and unbelievable. Maybe there is still this tiny hope. However, you can't alleviate the cut that was deeply wounded. It will always have a scar. But no worries, I don't hate you… coz hating you won't make me pretty. Though I know that you don't give a damn to those who hate you, coz I know your face is as thick as the Great Wall of China. Still I want you to know that I don't hate you coz you are nothing & I don't give a toss at all! It's as good as if you never existed.

But one thing I asked from you, don't ever get me too much upset.  Coz I am just a human not a saint.  You already stub me from my back and mock me in the web. Yet, you haven't heard one word from me. And despite the pain that you have caused my family, I still remained quiet.  So please don't put more insult to the injury.   I am telling you this for your own good and for serenity sake. You already hurt my family so badly, you caused so much havoc and continuously using my family for your selfishness and covetousness. Yet, they still gave you countless of second chances and hope that you will change for the better.  Yet, you're just keeping on giving them false hope.  So stop being dim-witted, you are such a pain in the ass already. And I can't promise if I can hold on to my patience any longer. You don't want me retaliate stormily; you don't want to do that.  So stop poking needles in my butt and stop pestering us! Coz like balloons I might just blow up right in front of your shameless face and give you a dose of your own medicine. So please… cut us some slack and back off!